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I think i have completely lost the plot now.


Im crying. At a film. Because 2 people love each other... all they did was hold hands FFS!


Im driving myself mental with the thought that i want my baby NOW and this is MY body and MY baby so i should be able to go down to the hospital and DEMAND my baby in my arms... even though it is beyond ridiculous and would get me no further than a bed on the psych ward.


BUT im beyond emotional. Ive got constant cramps. Im exhausted. I cant do ANYTHING because my legs are struggling to support my body. My back is killing me and with baby in the wrong position im struggling to even breathe.


I want my baby so much, but i think maybe i also just want to feel like i can get someone to come round without feeling like it is an unreasonable request


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May. 5th, 2013 06:59 pm (UTC)
How far along are you? Is this your first? Pregnancy can definitely wreak havoc with your emotions. Hang in there, love. xx
May. 5th, 2013 09:22 pm (UTC)
Oh Sal I do hope everything goes well! And it seems as though your mother should be at your call considering your state! I'd be there in a heartbeat to help you, does she not remember her own pregnancies?? I'm so sorry about her "new family," should she decide to choose them then she never should have been a parent in the first place, if she can't devote her life to those she GAVE life to. Sending you lots of love and prayers xoxo
May. 6th, 2013 12:52 pm (UTC)
She pretty much called me back after 15 minutes and calmed me down. I guess my expectations of her are wrong right now because shes changed so much and is actually so so much better since she started this new relationship. Im feeling much better today. Just a bit aggitated and bored amd crampy! xx
May. 6th, 2013 12:53 pm (UTC)
Im 36 and a half weeks with my first baby. Feeling better today thank god! x
May. 6th, 2013 07:22 pm (UTC)
Not long now! Must feel like it's still ages away but soon you'll have your beautiful little baby in your arms xXxXx
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